Be Kind To You

How did we become our own worst critics?  The world is tough enough without looking at ourselves with the critical eye that sows thoughts so harsh and unloving that you'd think they were aimed at a mortal enemy. Language in our heads that we would never say to our children, our best friends or any loved one for that matter. 

When is enough, enough?  When are we enough? Somewhere along the lines of development our visions of ourselves became grotesquely askew and beg for a break in that endless cycle of negative toxic thoughts. 

So when do we stop these patterns of self doubt and self abhorrence and start a new conversation in our heads that embraces what we love about ourselves and feel grateful for what is?  

How about today? Focus on being healthy.  Focus on expanding our lives and hearts with people and experiences that will enrich & fulfill.  Walk away from the mirror and base our day on how we're feeling inside.  Appreciate & be a sponge for the beauty around us and the joy of being on this earth. Look to gain knowledge and share a laugh.  Look to share a kindness and sow goodness in the world. Start a new language in our heads that says, " I am blessed to be alive.  I am grateful for today.  I will not waste another second on being unkind to me.  I am more than enough." 

Aim for "Pretty Damn Good" and then move on with our day because we've got other things to think about.    

Down but not Out!

Life is funny as it reveals itself.  Two steps forward, one step back. Perhaps the thing I value most in myself though is the ability to pick myself and give it another go.  I haven't always been proud of my missteps but I do believe in the constant opportunity to do it better the next time.

Recently, I start a Reboot as I was just feeling really crappy and had gotten off track.  Then I got a business head shot of myself back and was completely shocked.  My face was so bloated that I didn't resemble myself.  I sent the pic over to two of my gal pals and they immediately responded and wondered if it was the anti depressant I had started a few months back.

Five months prior I'd hit the wall with so much going on in our lives and the Dr. put me on a mild script.    It was the first time I'd ever tried anything like it but I had to admit that I needed some help and didn't have it all figured out this time.  Turned out that same day I went to have my head shot taken and when I got it, I didn't care for it but I figured I'd have it redone at some point., which ended up being two weeks ago.  See the side by side below for what can happen in 5 months.

                         Picture on the right was last October.  Picture on the left was two weeks ago.

So I started a Reboot and went to the Dr.s.and as it turns out over the past five months my weight had only fluctuated by 2 lbs.  The face inflammation is caused by the medicine so I'm slowing being weaned off of it for the time being.

Two weeks in to my Reboot and I got hammered by a flu bug this week.  Could barely get out of bed for a few days.  Now starting to feel normal and will START AGAIN tomorrow.

Here's what I've learned.  Take pictures of yourself!  They tell so much about your health and well being.  I'm so grateful that I had these two pics to compare.  If I hadn't I might never have realized what was happening to me.

Secondly, I feel not shame in my game.  Rebooting is now a part of my life and so is Starting Over. Shit happens in life and sometimes we just need a do over.

Onward and forward!